Short Story of money and me

 

I grew up in small village. I lived in a place where each family ocupied with farming.  And at my location farmers never decide price of their produce but middlman,  retailers,  big merchants or government. So I was not aware of the term called profit untill I crossed my 20. I was shocked when I first time knew profit. How can we take higher price than actual? I found it unethical.  But I still believed that world is full of wise people and they have made the thing called business and profit, so it must be proper. It was hard to grasp but somehow forcefully I accepted. Also, I was under process to know the world better. I was taught that for survival on the earth we all have to earn money. Earning money and gain prosperity is goal.  And you are more prosperous when you get more profit from your business. Having too much pressure of earning money, as young adult I accepted to live the system called business and profit. But I kept failing doing it because It was not in my blood.  My genes were coded differently. Keeping money in the center I got lots of bad experiences in my life. I thought people are not good.  Somewhere I failed to give fair service or stuff to my clients and I felt guilty. Somewhere I felt guilty about myself being not fully honest in my business.

Deep inside I wanted better world and seeking answers for all of these. I read many books. I listened to many religious and spiritual preachers but none of them were able to answer my questions,  because nobody was agaist business and money.  I saw constant competition and war of survival. Each moment I felt I am not made for this world. I kept thinking and discovering. I had gained good knowldge of law of attraction so I used it for getting more clients and profit and that way making myself rich man. But when your genes deny the thing called trade,  your outer artificial thinking cannot make you fit into this world system. My primary concern was good life for me and my parents. Just free, easy and joyful life. And at that time I was conditioned to believe business is only way one can have prosperity. In next phase,  desired for better life for myself using LOA, I imagined my  life within a small community on a big island. Very first I thought everybody in my community will be rich people including myself,  doing big business. So if each one is rich,  we don't need to pay each other for anythig within community. And whole community would be living as a big family.  Then next I thought that almost everyone living on this island will have much money for easy life. So, no one has to compromise buying they need or want in their life. And payment system in any business will be voluntarily,  i.e., after buying required stuff,  buyer will pay its written price at collection counter but there won't be anybody to collect money.

Imagining this, I felt that if everybody is rich nobody needs money. So there is no need to rotate money by doing business.  Rather each one provide stuff or service but nowhere one has to pay and each one get what one wants. So, on this island there won't be need of money. It lead to think that there is no need for money in this whole world as well. Money exists only because we all accepted it. Opposite to it if we all accept to remove money from our transactions, it is possible to live rich by resources but moneyless life for whole world. 

Then I wrote few things related to moneyless life. A dream world without money ( Glimpse of Love based world ). I printed leaflets of that dream moneyless world and shared for awareness. Few people said, it is ideal but impossible.  Everyone living in cooperation and sharing as a big family. Now, I was desperate to live the life I imagined but not sure how and where. 

For next 3-4 years I fell in trap again of this money world keeping that moneyless world inside me. Again I got one bad experience about money and this time it was money trade market of the world ( forex ). Next to it my father lost some big amount in high return investment scheme of one of his close friend. Even that close friend of father commited sucide. With that I realized how whole money system of the world works. That day I properly understood the term called profit and so conditional exchange. So, I wrote about conditional exchange. Also, I firmly decided not to do any conditional exchange in future. For myself I will do everything voluntarily for whatever I can. People support me or not but I will help others for the sake of being fair to myself and others based on my understanding. I volunteered to some non profit organizations constantly. Positive result was they were taking care of all my needs. Forcefully they gave me money for my personal needs survival being in this monetary world. 

It reinforced my thinking that moneyless world has lot more possibility. I studied the world more in depth. I was not alone to volunteers in this world but so many. There are billions who wish to make this world better place but they have barrier of money system. There are so many charity organizations. I realized people are not fully living conditional life. They are unconditional at so many occasions. So the result is all big temples,  churches and charity organizations thriving. Even leaving such organizationa so many people do lots of things just to help others. But to all of them somewhere money system forces to be conditional,  to earn money at first.  Based on my study and evolution in thoughts, I kept writing and it become a book.

For all my bad experience about money from me to them or from them to me,  I clearly understand that it was not me or them but a system of trade is the cause. 

My attitude is constant from my childhood upto today. I am always satisfied with myself for my attitude. Whenever I look within, I feel it is right thing I did regardless of what others do and achieve in their life. My attitude is like.. If I have something as much I need it,  I am happy regardless of others who may have so much more than me. But If I have something as much I need, I almost never wish to share it to someone but if I see someone who needs it more than me, I definately share it. And I never tell anyone that I shared. But when I have something which is more than I need it,  I immediately start thinking and seeking who needs it whom I can share.  

Few people from my village went to city to have better life. They were same like me,  born and brought up in a village; few from them failed and struggled for many years and somehow became part of city life. But few from them got settled in city quite nicely.  I tried to understand them. The difference was, they were not like me. If they have something extra stuff they will think of how can they convert it into money by selling it. Also, they almost never consider who buys it,  i.e. they may sell it to their friends and relatives, too. They never consider whether buyer has enough money for survival or not.